IM2,,

aku bangun sebentar dari mimpi.. dengan peluh . . dan nafas ngeri. lalu..
tidur lagi..

Gather A.L.L....

aku berlari. ke masjid dekat rumah. bersembunyi. dan berdoa semoga malam segera pergi.TUHAN tolong aku...

kokok ayam. dan sentuhan dingin seseorang tiba" sangat terasa. membangunkan aku. dari mimpi dlam mimpi. 

"dik, udah subuh" sapanya hangat.

dia pak yani, orang yang kukenal. pengurus masjid ini. tapi masih, sedikit kurasa takut. mungkin dia salah satu dari "mereka". tapi kutepis semua anggapan cepat. aku di masjid. Rumah Allah.

AllahuAkbar..AllahuAkbar.. nyaring suara adzan. semakin membawaku ke alam nyata. sedetik kemudian. wajahku sudah terguyur air dingin, wudhu. menyucikan hati. menenangkan jiwa.
setelah kejadian semalam. kuputuskan akan kulalukan! PENYELIDIKAN!.

abis shalat. aku pinjam motor pak hani. pergi cari dan beli alat yang bakal kubutuhkan. suatu saat nanti.


pagi sudah lama berlalu. aku mulai yakin. sudah cukup aku berdiam diri di sini. ku langkahkan kaki, meski ragu. Ku cari gerobak bubur yang, seingatku akan lewat. rencananya aku mau pinjam dan pura" mangkal di depan "rumah" ku. 

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sambil melayani para pembeli bersama asistenku (lebih tepatnya yang punya gerobak) aku melirik menyelidik. apa ada kegiatan di "TKP". kulihat semua masih diam. tak ada gerakan. lalu pintu depan terbuka sedikit. secarik wajah terlihat. memanggil. 

"Bubur..." suara ibuku.

si asisten, tanpa takut. menghampiri. mereka bicara sebentar. tiba" kulihat. sebuah tangan hitam besar menarik dia. kedalam rumahku. aku tak bergeming. takut, kalut, kutanya orang" di sampingku. 

"APA KAU LIHAT ITU??!?!?" aku berteriak tak jelas.

mereka malah memandangku aneh. 

*PUK* seseorang menepuk bahuku. kuberanikan diri berpaling. 
dan..

to be continued

ihwal mimpi"an ituh..

oke.. ini memang ada hubungannya ama rasa sakit yang menusuk jantungku.. 
malam itu tgl 21 oktober 2009. panas nya minta ampun. tapi bukan itu masalahnya.

Dream or DREAM!

Malam bulan sabit. Engga gelap amat tapi tetep membuat ati pengen cepet" pulang. Motorku q gas lagi. Sudah rindu membuncah ingin rupa aku bertemu. Keluarga. 3 tahun sudah aku tak melihat. Ibu, Ayah, ma adheg" q.

"Ting..Tong.. " bel doang.

kudengar langkah berat terseret dari dalam rumah. itu ibu. aku hapal. masih ingat. dalam memory.
tidak butuh waktu lama untuk menunggu. pintu terbuka. wajah tua yang kucinta muncul. dalam diam aku peluk. ibuku.

"ayo masuk, nak".. dia bilang.

waktu aku masuk. pintu samping masih terbuka lebar. kulihat sebuah api unggun yang masih menyala.

" siapa yang itu mi??". tanyaku.

"adhegmu tadi.. main api". jawab beliau halus.

lalu kudekati sisa api yang masih menyala. cahayanya samar masih bersinar sedikit.
mataku menyusur ke sekitar tempat itu. dan terkejut seluruh badanku. aku melihat tengkorak manusia. masih baru. karena masih kulihat tikus" got di dalam kedua lubang matanya. mengerikan. dan..
saat kupalingkan wajah. kulihat rumahku menjadi reruntuhan. ku usap mataku dan berubah menjadi baru lagi.
Aku takut. tak percaya. yang ada d pikiranku hanya LARI! ku berlari dengan cepat menuju gerbang samping. melompatinya. dan sempat melihat kebelakang.
Ibuku berteriak memanggil. TANPA WAJAH!

aku... semakin kencang menjauh lari tak tahu arah.
malam itu. petualangan ini di mulai.

to be continued..

50 Little Secrets :3

ini adalah beberapa rahasia q yang terkuak d Facebook:

01. Who was your last text from?
Mbag Dhita

02. Where was your default picture taken?
School

03. Your relationship status?
It's complicated

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
yes, he died more than 1 year ago.. T.T

05. What is your current mood?
sad in happy face.

06. How many siblings do you have?
1 brother and 1 sister.

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
brother : Ahmad Alfian Akhimullah
sister : Dyah Rumaisha Nurul Aini

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
somewhere outside my country.

09. Have a crazy side?
all side *multiple personality*

10. Ever had a near death experience?
once, when I was baby.

11. Something you do a lot?
thinking. and talking.

12. Angry at anyone?
sometimes.

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
nothing. I can do that at ease.

14. When was the last time you cried?
every night.

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yes. My parents.

16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
hope I can wake up tomorrow.

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My sister.

18. What is your favorite song?
The Nox - Fitri

19. What are you doing right now?
listening Frente - Bizarre Love Triangle, reading articels from Wikipedia, Write a new post in my blog.

20. Who do you trust right now?
Allah Azza wa Jalla. and Muhammad his last prophet. and then my parents. then my friends.

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
from my family's old chest of drawers

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
never. kissed someone except muhrim

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
Dony Indra Gupala

24. Describe your life in one word?
Colorfull

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
My Love and my self.

26. What should you be doing right now?
Praying.

27. What are you listening to?
new music which suggested by my friends.

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
My mother.

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
My Brother

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
Actually, YES.

31. What is your natural hair colour?
BLACK. maybe be white when I'm old.

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
My self.

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
My self.

34. What do you hear?
My conscience.

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
straight hair..

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
mewah?? never. They know who am I.

37. Do you have a best friend?
not just one.. :) Love U all.

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Nope.

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Always. sad inside.

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
if in a pinch.

41. Are you happy with life right now?
Yep.. and try to share it.

42. Are you currently jealous?
just a little.

43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
I haven't.

44. What were you doing last Friday?
meeting.

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
alhamdullilah never. I hope.

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I don't know.

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
Yes. but it's secret.

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
Accompany my friend.

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
6 hours. Insomnia.

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Never. I hate date.